Emi: "hey, do you know there's a teacher with your exact same haircut??"

Me: "I know who you are talking about, but we have diferent haircuts, mine's better lol"

Emi: "I'm telling you, it's the same haircut!!! I saw her!"

Me: "I know! I saw her too. She's short, with black short hair and very light skin, she's studying translation..."

and that was when I realised I was just descriving myself in some years. I'm short, I have short black hair, my skin isn't that tanned, and I want to study translation when I get out of school!!  it really was funny, but it got me thinking about where I'm going to be in 10 years from now. so I decided to write a ist of my interest, so I can see where I can be headed.

My interests: # Theatre. I started going to drama classes some years ago, and I loved it! I became so outgoing, I lost almost all the fear of talking in front of an audince, and I made some pretty amazing friends (one of them likes my sister XD)
# Comedy: I consider myself a pretty funny person, and after watching some marathons of stand up comedy, I really liked it, you make fun of your own problems, and I CAN DO THAT, in fact I do that every day. I became a fan of Ellen DeGeneres and Mo'nique.
#Music, I come froma very musicakl family, so they influenced me a lot when it comes to hobbies.
#Speaking, I just love a good conversation!!

I don't know what I'm going to do in 10 years, but I hope I get to do any of the ones in my list. they are my golden dreams.

one is in my school. it started as an inocent game. he started saying compliments to me and I had a good reaction at them, I never thought someone would ever give  me a compliment, and that is why I was a 100% sure he's just fooling around. but then he started screaming my name once in a while whenever I walked by, and making comments to me, and he walks near my classroom and looks trought the window of the door, and sat next to me in a school meeting, and other stuff like that. I used to be sure he was just joking, but now I'm not that sure. he has a reputation in my school of not being so nice, something jerkish, but in a school trip I was able to see he isn't that much of a jerk, but the camp ended and now he's the old him, wo doesn't really talk, if he talked to me like in a real conversation, I'd like him a lot more.

the other one is the worse type of stalker and really creepy: an internet stalker. he added me at msn some years ago, and I talked to him as I didn't have that much of a social life. but then he started talking about wanting to meet me, I always changed the subject, until one day he went to my country, I felt like diyng. he told me about meeting him but I never answwered or set a day. so he retuned to his country, and today I got into my msn and he started talking to me, and he remembered where I was from (which I actually lied so to aboid things like this) he told me that I didn't wanted to talk to him and that I was afraid, I never answered back, then he logged out and I'm scared, I fear what he might do, I am really afraid that if I tell him that I don't want to meet him what he might do. I'm scared. I don't want to tell my parents, should I stop admiting him?? what shall I do??

a friend of mine and I get together once in a while to practice some songs. she plays the guitar and I sing. and sometimes (only if really needed) I play the piano. not that I can play it, I just touch the keys in the order that the song requires. so my friend doesn't know hoe to play the begging of the song (and we need a second guitar) so I'll play that part and some others as piano isn't needed.

I hate beeing sick, I can't get with my friends without the fear of making them ill. so I'm taking every cold pill I can get to my hands. it isn't so much as that, but you get it.

I really don't have much to say, so bye bye!!!

love you all!!!

I don't think it's a joke. they really were serious about it. it sucks because I won't be able to spend a very important moment for me with them. I know it sounds stupid, but it really means a lot to me. (this was going to be the first time I´d actually do something for my birthday)

_"I didn't told you this because I wasn't sure if it would work out, but I met this guy some weeks ago and we are going out."

and that's how she answered it:

_ "OMG!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!! YOU HAVE A BOY FRIEND!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS"

that hurted, is it that difficult to imagine me with someone?? I'm not that cold hearted. the next day I asked her why she reacted that way, and she said that she didn't imagined me as a romantic. but that's a big fat lie. I'm a romantic!! is the wall I built too tall?? I don't know, but I think it's time to break it. though, It's great to be misterious. no one knows who I like (or liked) and that's kinda cool ;)

• first of all: SUN TONE factor 65 will do for me, I'm relatively pale, and I like my skin to remain lika that this summer.

• A HAT: or a cap (actually, a cap is much better)

• FLIP-FLOPS

(I'm short, and my friends are taller than me, even my younger sister is taller than me, so I use high heeled flip-flops so I don't look so short)

• and last but not least A LIGHTER!!! so I can burn all my school stuff!!!

• There is something missing, and those are my friends, couldn't survive summer vacations without them. They are the love of my fucken life!!!

there wasn't anything special after that, so good bye.

we wnet home at midnight more or less. my mom told me that his mother wanted me as her daughter in-law (that was funny), but later My heart started beating weird, and whenever I heard his name or something I beated harder, so much that I felt the beats on my ears!! and I started sighning a lot, and singing "lovesong" from The Cure,  it's so freaky, either I'm in love with him or I'm going to have a heart attack soon. the thing is that I never felt this way in my whole life!!!

              S.O.S